Second weigh in.

So I went in for my second weigh in since starting back on WW.  I must say I am proud to say I am down another 2.2lbs.  So that's a total of 7.8lbs.  I struggled a little last week with food, but I worked out everyday!  I am happy about that, and I found a new workout that I am in love with and that is Zumba.  I actually have a class today right after work.  I didn't think I would like it, but it was actually really fun and it burns tons of calories.  I did the whole hour nonstop and even though I was winded and sweating I didn't want the class to end.  I have exactly 5months until I go to the Dominican Republic and I am sooo excited about it.  I am going to have a great time with my girls, so I am going to be kicking my workouts up into overdrive for the next 5 months.  I have been having an issue with confidence lately, and everyone that knows me knows that I am a very confident woman.  I didn't know why I was feeling less confident and somewhat insecure I guess, but then I had a conversation with a friend and I came to realize what the issue was.  The issue was inside of me, and it was actually quite silly when I sat and thought about it.  So I am recently in a new relationship with my guy.  I have dated with him for about 8 months but we recently decided that we would try a relationship.  Before this I was just fine.  It wasn't really any insecurities, but now they are coming out.  So I came to realize that the issue is that my guy is in great shape, he is healthy, he plays football; but I am the total opposite.  So I guess it was bothering me subconsciously that he is in such good shape and I am "working on it".  So my friend asked me has he ever mentioned it once to me, and I told her no he hasn't.  So she said "if it isn't bothering him, why is it bothering you?"  At that point I was brought back to reality, I have been this way since I met him.  He thought I was beautiful then and he still thinks I am beautiful now, plus he came to me, not the other way around.  We as women have to understand that the only person who is judging us is US!  It is great to be beautiful on the outside but the beauty on the inside is what really matters.  Yes men see your outward appearance first, but once that get to know that beautiful, lovely, sweet person you are on the inside; that's what captures his heart, oh and food! LOL.  So this week I learned a real lesson, insecurity can weigh down on you and make you feel like you are not worthy of everything you deserve, and that men don't like women who lack confidence.  I hope this post helps someone other than myself.  Have a great week!!      Here are some pictures of my punkin....    

First Weigh-in

So, I weighed in on Saturday.  My first weighin after starting back on weight watcher.  I am down 5.6lbs.  I feel good about it.  It lets me know that I still have the tools and always did have the tools I need to stay on track.  I have noticed that I let stress and things that I have no control over stand in my way and throw me off track, so I am working on that.  I realize that I am not perfect and I am allowed to fuck up ever so often, no one is perfect.  I won't try to be anymore, I can only be me and try as hard as I can, and I know I can finish this what I have started.  My goal is total heath.  Have a great week!

Progress Chart #1

I am sooooo pissed because I did something to my progress chart and lost most of my information.  I am going to go and get my old Weigh In books and see if I can fix it.  But I guess the past is the past but I would like to see my first 80lbs I ever lost on my blog.  I posted my WW weigh-in from this past Saturday on the chart and it hurts to see it right there in my face waving at me.  Its all good though because I am doing something about it as we speak.  The think that is hard for me this week is drinking the water!  I HATE water.  I would rather have a diet soda or juice.  But water is detrimental to weight loss.  I am going to the store to see if I can find something to make my water taste better with no calories.  They have all kinds of things that you can use for that, so I will be doing that today.  This week is going great so far.  I am excited to get to my WeighIn on Saturday to see how I did on my first week back on. 

Checking In

I am checking in a little late but checking in none the less.  I am feeling really good today.  My friend, Nikki J, and I are going to Dominican Republic in June.  We are determined to get our bodies in shape for this trip.  I am looking forward to a lot of beach time so I have a goal of 10lbs per month until we go.  That means by June 17th I should be down 50lbs.  I know that I can achieve this goal because I have done it before.  Nothing really stands in the way but me.  I am getting back in the grove and although it is not as easy as I thought, it is being done.  I am happy to have the support of my family and friends.  I am also ready to start back modeling and I it is going to be great.  I am going to post some pics from my last photo shoot last year this time to give you an idea of my modeling abilities.  Although I have been feeling a little down lately, the weight gain is one reason, I am not going to let it get me down and keep me from succeeding in the way that I know I can.  I am back on Weight Watchers and my weigh in date is on Saturday mornings.  Every week I will post my stats after my meetings starting this Saturday 1/21/12.  Right now I am down 27.2lbs from where I started from the beginning.  That means I gained back 46lbs.  OMG, it hurts to type that, but I already know what I have to do, so that is only motivation for me.  Well let me stop blogging while I am on the clock....

                                      

Getting Back on the horse..

I am back on my blog.  I have gained back quite a bit of weight, back up to 310 lbs.  When I saw the number on the scale I was quite disappointed and felt really terrible.  I have to start focusing on me because I have come to realize that I am easily distracted when I am faced with stressful situations, then one day off turns into two days off, then a month then three months. Its time to break that vicious cycle. I had a great Christmas and looking forward to the new year and the new me.  So from the start of my journey I am down 34lbs.  That's not bad, but when looking back when I was down 75lbs, its really hard to look at.  Today starts a new me and a better life style.  I will try to blog at least once a week, but I am striving to blog more than that.  It's time to take control over my life and my health and make is a permanent solution instead of a quick fix.

My goal has been established...

I have decided to set a goal of 10lbs per month minimum.  I can lose more, but I want to at least lose 10 per month.  I know I can do it, because I have done it before.  My ultimate goal is to lose 114lb.  I am giving myself a year to do so.  It is not going to be easy, because as I have learned, it's not easy to stay on track and there are always going to be some bumps in the road, but I am going to do my best to stay on track.  From now on, instead of sitting and sulking when things are going bad, I will put my aggression into the gym.  That's best for me.  I am also going to check in on this blog once a week on Tuesdays.  I am going to post my weekly weightloss and blog about what my week was like.  So here goes everything!

I'm back!!

I am back on the road.  I fell off for a while and let my focus be disrupted.  I have gained back almost half of what I lost, but I am not going to let that keep me from getting back on the horse.  I have to remember to surround myself with people who are going to motivate me and have my back.  Some people purposely try to get you off task and you have to be careful of these people.  I am glad that I have found new motivation.  I have learned an important lesson in all of this, don't make other people's issues more important than your own.  So on that note, I'm back. 

Haven't checked in on my blog in a while.

          I haven't checked in on my blog in a while.  I don't want to stop because it keeps me motivated in my journey, but I have been so busy lately.  I was chosen to be a model in my very first fashion show which turned out to be a great success.  I had so much fun and did an excellent job for it to be my first show.  I am at 57.8lbs lost.  I can't believe that I have come so far on my journey in losing this weight, but I know with some motivation and determination, anything is possible.  I have set a goal to lose 70lbs by Christmas and I am right on track.  I have had some weeks where I was not losing as much as I would have like to lose, but I guess we all go through that when we are on a path to a healthy lifestyle.  I am going to vow to blog at least once a week, because this blog really keeps me on track.  I am going to add some pics from the fashion show on this blog and also add some more weight loss pics as well.  I can't believe my body has transformed in the way that it has, but I am soooooo happy and proud of myself and I know that I can do this.  Until next time.......



I almost forgot.......

            I almost forgot.  I did my first photo shoot for the group, THICK IS THE NEW SEXY!!!!  This group is new for me.  I became interested in it and it has really help me to feel more secure about being a plus size female.  It builds character and confidence and I am soooo happy that I found this group to lean on in this exciting time in my life.  This is also the group who chose me to be a model in thier fashion show.  The cater to women sizes 12 and up.  Thanks ladies for all you do, and I look forward to the future of this group.  Below you will find a ling to the photo shoot pictures.  It was so fun........

http://www.facebook.com/MzThang32?v=photos#!/album.php?aid=77582&id=1153293901&page=4

Feeling really good and doing even better!!!

All of my WW awards so far.  10% ring, 5k charm, and 25lb washer.

         

          I haven't posted an entry in a little while, I have had sooooo many new things going on in my life in the past month or so.  I went and auditioned to be part of a plus size fashion show and got the gig.  I am soooo excited about.  I have never done anything like this before and I am sooooo happy and blessed to be able to do it.  I have been very faithful to my WW plan and getting on the scale this morning it read 295.l lbs.  It's not an official WI, I do those on Saturday, but it is still a WI and I am soooo proud of myself.  I am almost to a 50lbs lost mark.  My BMI as dropped down 7 points since starting on my new lifestyle change.  I have lost 26% of the total weight I need to lose to get to my goal weight, that means I have completed my goal 1/4 of the way.  this is so unbelievable to me.  I am staying focused and not letting anything get in my way.  I have to say that thing that has helped me the most is not limiting myself to what I can eat.  I eat what I want, but in moderation.  I don't feel like I am on a diet, I just have what I want, even if it is a piece of cake!  I love cake and yes I have cake when I want it.  I am officially 4 months in and the results are more than I could ever ask for.  I just thank God for helping me and keeping me on this road to success.  I will not give up!!!

Down 43.6lbs

Made it to my 10% goal......

My 10% charm!!!!

         

I have to be honest today and say that I honestly was not expecting a 3.6lb loss last night at WI!  I had added some weight training into my exercise routine, and everybody said, "Don't expect a loss this week, because you are gaining more muscle mass and muscle weighs more than fat".  I was a little hesitant at first to start doing weights, but I thought what the hell, muscle helps you burn more fat so in the end weight training will be a benefit to me.  This just goes to show that people don't always know what they are talking about and you have to do things and see things for yourself.  I will continue the weight training 2-3 times a week. 

          After saying all of that, I HAVE FINALLY MADE IT TO MY 10% GOAL!!!!!  I was so happy, and I have a total weight loss of 35.6lbs.  This just gets better for me every week.  I am so happy that I am not letting my mind and insecurities get in the way of this weight loss.  Everyone is so happy for me and that is motivation enough.  Thanks to everyone who is in my corner and cheering for me all the way.....

Second gain since starting......No biggie

          So, I weighed in yesterday and I had a 1.2lb gain.  I really don't know what happened seeing as thought I was strictly on plan and I increased my exercise by and additional day.  I really think it had something to do with TOM and it is ok for me.  I hope to have a double loss next week and if not that is ok too.  I am determined and one gain is not going to stop me from getting to my goal.

Reached 30lbs!!

          I went to my WI last night and dropped down another 2.8lbs.  I was sooooo excited.  I only have to lose 4lbs more to make it to my 10%.  That is 10% of my original starting weight.  I am really going to work a little harder this week to see if I can do it in a week.
          This WW program is becoming more and more a part of my normal everyday life.  I don't even have to think about it anymore, it just comes rather naturally.  I don't feel like I am on a diet, because WW makes it easy to live and eat the normal things you like and still lose weight at the same time.  I am realizing everyday that this really is truly a lifestyle change.  I am thankful that I came to a decision to really get my life on track and get my body healthy so that I can live a more productive life.  I have to be honest, being overweight can really hold you back from doing lots of things in your life.  I use to say that I am happy the way I was, and to honest with you, I really was.  I had no problem with how I looked, because I always have thought very highly of myself.  When I started to feel bad on the inside, meaning not feeling good physically, I knew that I had to do something about it.  I am too young to die of a cause that I could have done something about, so guess what, I'm doing it and nothing or no one is going to stand in the way of my progress.  Either you are with me, or you are against me, and if you are against me then you can step off.

25lb MILESTONE REACHED!!!!

Last night at my WI, I went in as usual paid my $13 and got up on the scale.  Most people who weigh you will normally tell you how you did, but this particular lady never shows any emotion at all.  I was so anxious to see what the sticker she placed inside of my weight loss tracker showed.  I was delighted when I opened my book and saw a loss of 2.4lbs, which brought my total weight loss amount to 27.2lbs.  I am sooooo proud of myself for being able to make it this far.  I only have 6.8lbs more to reach my next goal of 10% of my starting weight.  Thanks to God for letting me strong enough to make it through this far.

First 20lb goal reached.....

As of this past Thursday, July 1st 2010, I reached my goal of losing the first 20lbs.  I am actually down 22.2lbs.  I feel really accomplished.  I am stating to realize that this journey is not a race.  I would treat it like a race in past times, but, who was I racing against??? Myself i suppose.  I know now that it took years for me to gain the weight and it may very well take years to lose it.  But I think 22.2 lbs before two months on program is great.  The last time I was on WW my goal was 20lbs per month!  That was so unrealistic, and that is why I eventually quit.  The weight just wasn't coming off fast enough for me, but now I realize that if I quit, the weight will not come off at all!  So I prefer slowly and healthily as oppose to not at all.  This is a lifestyle change, not a diet.  If you don't view it that way, you will surely fail this journey.  I am not saying the weight won't come off, but it will not stay off.  I will never be able to go back to the way I use to eat, and I am comfortable with that.

Official first big goal established....

This morning I have established my first big goal for the year.  My goal is to lose 70lbs by Christmas.  I know that I can do it, but it is going to take dedication and determination.  I have to put faith in God and give it my best and I know it will be obtainable.

5% goall reached.....

I have finally reached my goal of losing 5% of my starting weight.  A total of 17lbs.  I feel really good about it.  Over the weekend, I landing in the ER with chest and stomach pains.  I thought that I was having a heart attack but thank God I wasn't.  They said they think it is my gallbladder.  I have to go see my primary doctor and set up a nuclear study to see if my gallbladder is working correctly.  If not, I may have to have it removed.  They also let me know that when a person loses a large quantity of weight or loses rapidly, it can have an effect on your gallbladder.  I have decided not to let this stand in my way, if I have to have it removed, then so be it.  I am and will lose this weight so that I can be a more healthy me.

Feeling good feeling great!

I am feeling good today.  I went to WI last night and I am down another 4.4lbs.  That is the 1.4 I gained last week and an additional 3!  I was so upset last week seeing as though I exercised more and stayed on the WW plan, but I had a gain.  So my WW friends told me maybe I was not eating enough and my body was holding onto fat, and by george, I ate a little more and I had a great loss.  This is going really well and my first month on plan I lost 13lbs.  Yes!

I just don't know what happened!!!!!!!!!!!

     I am so disappointed right now.  I had a weigh in today and gained 1.4lbs!!!!  But my question is WHY!!!!!  I did everything right this week.  I stayed on my plan and didn't go over my points or use my weekly or activity points.  I exercised 5 days this week for an hr and fifteen mins each session. 
So right now I am at a loss for words.  It took everything in my soul to keep from walking out of the meeting today.  I guess I could have drank more water, but still a gain?  I don't know, but I need to wrap my mind around before I sabotage myself!

WI results

Well I went for my 3rd weight in last night and I lost another 4.8 pounds.  I feel so good about it.  I was nervous for nothing and I really know that I can do this.  I have so much support from my family and from my man.  I feel really good and it really does make a difference when you exercise.  My body feels different and my clothes are fitting a little differently too.  I didn't know that 10 pounds could make such a big change in a person who weighs as much as I do.  Well, I guess you wouldn't know until you try.  I am wondering what it will feel like to be under 300 pounds.  I have weighed at least 300 pounds for the last 11 years!  I can not believe it.  I remember when I weighed in at 300 pounds exactly it was in 1998.  I started taking this diet pill that made me so sick and I had to get off of it.  Oh my god, I can't even bare to think about it, makes me feel really bad.  But this is behind me now, and all I can do is move forward.  Well back to work.