Second weigh in.

So I went in for my second weigh in since starting back on WW.  I must say I am proud to say I am down another 2.2lbs.  So that's a total of 7.8lbs.  I struggled a little last week with food, but I worked out everyday!  I am happy about that, and I found a new workout that I am in love with and that is Zumba.  I actually have a class today right after work.  I didn't think I would like it, but it was actually really fun and it burns tons of calories.  I did the whole hour nonstop and even though I was winded and sweating I didn't want the class to end.  I have exactly 5months until I go to the Dominican Republic and I am sooo excited about it.  I am going to have a great time with my girls, so I am going to be kicking my workouts up into overdrive for the next 5 months.  I have been having an issue with confidence lately, and everyone that knows me knows that I am a very confident woman.  I didn't know why I was feeling less confident and somewhat insecure I guess, but then I had a conversation with a friend and I came to realize what the issue was.  The issue was inside of me, and it was actually quite silly when I sat and thought about it.  So I am recently in a new relationship with my guy.  I have dated with him for about 8 months but we recently decided that we would try a relationship.  Before this I was just fine.  It wasn't really any insecurities, but now they are coming out.  So I came to realize that the issue is that my guy is in great shape, he is healthy, he plays football; but I am the total opposite.  So I guess it was bothering me subconsciously that he is in such good shape and I am "working on it".  So my friend asked me has he ever mentioned it once to me, and I told her no he hasn't.  So she said "if it isn't bothering him, why is it bothering you?"  At that point I was brought back to reality, I have been this way since I met him.  He thought I was beautiful then and he still thinks I am beautiful now, plus he came to me, not the other way around.  We as women have to understand that the only person who is judging us is US!  It is great to be beautiful on the outside but the beauty on the inside is what really matters.  Yes men see your outward appearance first, but once that get to know that beautiful, lovely, sweet person you are on the inside; that's what captures his heart, oh and food! LOL.  So this week I learned a real lesson, insecurity can weigh down on you and make you feel like you are not worthy of everything you deserve, and that men don't like women who lack confidence.  I hope this post helps someone other than myself.  Have a great week!!      Here are some pictures of my punkin....    

First Weigh-in

So, I weighed in on Saturday.  My first weighin after starting back on weight watcher.  I am down 5.6lbs.  I feel good about it.  It lets me know that I still have the tools and always did have the tools I need to stay on track.  I have noticed that I let stress and things that I have no control over stand in my way and throw me off track, so I am working on that.  I realize that I am not perfect and I am allowed to fuck up ever so often, no one is perfect.  I won't try to be anymore, I can only be me and try as hard as I can, and I know I can finish this what I have started.  My goal is total heath.  Have a great week!

Progress Chart #1

I am sooooo pissed because I did something to my progress chart and lost most of my information.  I am going to go and get my old Weigh In books and see if I can fix it.  But I guess the past is the past but I would like to see my first 80lbs I ever lost on my blog.  I posted my WW weigh-in from this past Saturday on the chart and it hurts to see it right there in my face waving at me.  Its all good though because I am doing something about it as we speak.  The think that is hard for me this week is drinking the water!  I HATE water.  I would rather have a diet soda or juice.  But water is detrimental to weight loss.  I am going to the store to see if I can find something to make my water taste better with no calories.  They have all kinds of things that you can use for that, so I will be doing that today.  This week is going great so far.  I am excited to get to my WeighIn on Saturday to see how I did on my first week back on. 

Checking In

I am checking in a little late but checking in none the less.  I am feeling really good today.  My friend, Nikki J, and I are going to Dominican Republic in June.  We are determined to get our bodies in shape for this trip.  I am looking forward to a lot of beach time so I have a goal of 10lbs per month until we go.  That means by June 17th I should be down 50lbs.  I know that I can achieve this goal because I have done it before.  Nothing really stands in the way but me.  I am getting back in the grove and although it is not as easy as I thought, it is being done.  I am happy to have the support of my family and friends.  I am also ready to start back modeling and I it is going to be great.  I am going to post some pics from my last photo shoot last year this time to give you an idea of my modeling abilities.  Although I have been feeling a little down lately, the weight gain is one reason, I am not going to let it get me down and keep me from succeeding in the way that I know I can.  I am back on Weight Watchers and my weigh in date is on Saturday mornings.  Every week I will post my stats after my meetings starting this Saturday 1/21/12.  Right now I am down 27.2lbs from where I started from the beginning.  That means I gained back 46lbs.  OMG, it hurts to type that, but I already know what I have to do, so that is only motivation for me.  Well let me stop blogging while I am on the clock....

                                      

Getting Back on the horse..

I am back on my blog.  I have gained back quite a bit of weight, back up to 310 lbs.  When I saw the number on the scale I was quite disappointed and felt really terrible.  I have to start focusing on me because I have come to realize that I am easily distracted when I am faced with stressful situations, then one day off turns into two days off, then a month then three months. Its time to break that vicious cycle. I had a great Christmas and looking forward to the new year and the new me.  So from the start of my journey I am down 34lbs.  That's not bad, but when looking back when I was down 75lbs, its really hard to look at.  Today starts a new me and a better life style.  I will try to blog at least once a week, but I am striving to blog more than that.  It's time to take control over my life and my health and make is a permanent solution instead of a quick fix.

My goal has been established...

I have decided to set a goal of 10lbs per month minimum.  I can lose more, but I want to at least lose 10 per month.  I know I can do it, because I have done it before.  My ultimate goal is to lose 114lb.  I am giving myself a year to do so.  It is not going to be easy, because as I have learned, it's not easy to stay on track and there are always going to be some bumps in the road, but I am going to do my best to stay on track.  From now on, instead of sitting and sulking when things are going bad, I will put my aggression into the gym.  That's best for me.  I am also going to check in on this blog once a week on Tuesdays.  I am going to post my weekly weightloss and blog about what my week was like.  So here goes everything!

I'm back!!

I am back on the road.  I fell off for a while and let my focus be disrupted.  I have gained back almost half of what I lost, but I am not going to let that keep me from getting back on the horse.  I have to remember to surround myself with people who are going to motivate me and have my back.  Some people purposely try to get you off task and you have to be careful of these people.  I am glad that I have found new motivation.  I have learned an important lesson in all of this, don't make other people's issues more important than your own.  So on that note, I'm back.